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Lead Me – Sanctus Real

“I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying…

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can’t
Don’t leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you’re willing to fight
That I’m still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They’re just children from the outside
I’m working hard, I tell myself they’ll be fine
They’re in independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying…

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can’t
Don’t leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you’re willing to fight
That I’m still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I’m called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won’t You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can’t
Don’t want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I’ll show them I’m willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, ’cause I can’t do this alone

Father, lead me, ’cause I can’t do this alone”

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Att: Jealousy

Dear Ms. Jealousy,

I’m writing you today to tell you in no uncertain terms your position has be removed from our company effective immediately. You see I let you in by instinct not by qualification and that was truly unfair to Mr. Love, Mrs. Faith, and Miss Hope.

We took your advice, unwittingly, and your attitude has hung like a thick damp cloud in the work place. Dripping your evil intent into the lungs and over the eyes of others.

I nearly fired Rage for her actions until someone pointed out my rage was simply a cause and effect of you. Frankly, I’m quite tired of that tiny seed that you brought in promising something beautiful but instead grows a full fledge Venus fly trap in my soul. Eating all happiness and peace that desires to flutter by.
No more warnings and no more waiting for you to change. Pack your bags and security will be waiting for you outside your office.


Jealousy is a strong human emotion and according to the Bible it’s a sin. Alistair Begg did a sermon (broadcast in 2 parts part 1 here part 2 here) on jealousy that really opened my mind and understanding.

I am going to admit its so hard to make this post because while I realize my faults, the sadness surrounding what used to make me angry and jealous still lingers. And when I try to give examples I can’t without becoming bitter and angry. Instead I will try to make a list of things I know I have or do get jealous about. No matter how absurd it may seem I want someone who reads this they are not alone.

1. The ocean (not of the ocean but that I have and may not ever get to experience the beach and ocean)
2. Childless couples who spend infinite time together or vacation
3. Thin and healthy men and women
4. My husband (this is a long and complicated story all in itself but he has been to the ocean, has vacations and friends, is thin and healthy, and seems so much more happy in life than me because he has no bad emotions.)

What advice can I give to combat these feelings? Pray, pray, pray! Never stop praying and having a dialog in your mind with your God. And never stop listening for him.

My first post for but second or third day in the Daily Post Writing 101 challenge. As always thank you for reading and I hope I was able to move or help you in some way.

Updated for autocorrected typos

Kids mop in a penny

Ever have an old swiffer or the like and you just don’t want to buy refills? Or it just didn’t live up to your standards?

I used to sell Norwex and I dreamed of buying the kids mop set but it costs a lot even on a consultants price. So after my one year old wouldn’t leave the swiffer all I had an idea just now.


I removed the middle piece and connected the handle lower. Hook on a wash cloth, enviro cloth, or baby wipe and you’ve got a kiddy mop for literally nothing (or 9.99 if you have to buy a starter kit).

I didn’t look at all on Pinterest or the internet – because I’d like to think I clever lol – but even if I wasn’t the first I hope my post helps a mom or dad out there with an over-helpful child 🙂

Win a Copy of The Year Without Pants

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From 2010 to 2012, author and speaker Scott Berkun led Team Social at Automattic. The Year Without Pants: and the future of work recounts his experiences and reflections on leading a distributed team at Automattic.

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Download a free excerpt of Chapter 4 the book (PDF).

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Crazy Dreams

I have always been one to have wild, vivid, emotion filled dreams that seemed so real. I nearly always remember the colors and most, if not all, the sites, smells, and actions that took place during my dreams. I used to feel helpless, paralyzed even, as a giant cat or unknown man attacked or killed me. These where from the enemy or from my own deep down fears in my heart. I always wondered and lived my life as if they where premonitions of my personal demise. I was always watching at waiting.

But thank you Jesus for your sweet protection in my nearly three decades on earth I have never been in a situation like that outside of my dreams. When I was 19, I went to Costa Rica on a missions trip (which deserves a whole post all and of itself) and my fear of dying in the jungle due to a cougar or jaguar wouldn’t even let me sleep. Not even 30 feet away from where we slept the family kept pics in a low wooden hut with a moat around it so that the mountain cats couldn’t get to them. The same with the chickens. And one night I even thought I heard one grumbling outside the walls of the church building where we slept. Now as a married woman I realize the sound was most likely the men snoring on the far side of the church (women and girls on one side, men and boy on the other). The only thing that did “get me” was a pigeon size moth that brought a lot of laughter to the local pastor and his sons as it chased me a few times!

ANYWAY, moving on to my point. It was on that trip I learned to become aware of my dreams. Not taught in a class but showed by God rather than I can control the fear in my dreams. I was in a four-post home with billowing curtains on the land where the church stood. A giant mountain lion walked in and I was laying on the floor. The cat began to eat at my ribs (gruesome much! good thing it was a blurry dream). Then suddenly I saw myself also sitting on the bed at the same time and I told the cat “Stop! In the name of Jesus leave me alone!”

And you know what? It not only stopped but lay down and became a pet in my dreams. I was able to pet the cat’s head and it fell asleep. I have rarely felt fear for a cat since that dream. Yes I still cringe because I’m just not a cat person but it’s not a debilitating fear like before. And one day as I drove in Missouri at 5 am I wasn’t afraid when the biggest bob-cat I’ve ever seen crossed the road in front of me. In fact I realized the creature was a beautiful creation of God just as I am a beautiful creation of God.

Now bringing me to main point of this post. I had a very real dream last night of police chasing people, Walmart, and men attacking. But I was at Walmart last night, the police where called for shop lifting, and no, no one was there to attack me. I had a dream I was shopping and the store opened up to a park and then the police where chasing a group of younger people (early 20s, late teens). We where walking in the direction they where chasing. I said “I don’t think we should go that way.” But the other two in my group kept walking then suddenly a man grabbed me from behind and tried to take me. I yelled ‘No’ firmly and began to fight. But in the dream I realized it didn’t hurt my hands to fight back and I couldn’t feel the man. I stopped fighting and said “In the name of Jesus you will stop and walk away!” And he did.

The two women with me decided to go back to where we came from but another man tried to grab us to use as a bargain to get their friends back from the cops. Again I began to tell him the same thing and it was resolving and he was letting go when I began to wake up.

Moments later I felt my husband begin to hug me from behind and he caught my hair with his arm. I was still in fight mode and tried to free my hair. Poor hubby got a small head butt from trying to hug and show some love. It must not have been too hard since he started laughing and asked what that was for. I told him I was dreaming and he was lucky I didn’t go all kun fu on him like he does to me. When he dreams he plays soccer or basketball I get a nice jolt of him “jumping” or “kicking” in his sleep. LoL


Here are some interesting links I happen to stumble upon after a quick Google search on dreams in the bible.

How did God use dreams and visions in the Bible?

Christian dream interpretation?

Lucid dreaming – what is it? is it a sin?

These are the articles I’ve read so far from this website. If you find any more interesting ones or have your own story to tell comment below 🙂

ETA: video for YouTube is uploading and it has a little more detail than this post.

Here is the video:

When awesome products don’t stay around!

I am having a planner problem! Crisis!!    Mild annoyance Preference problem. You see when I was in high school two of my sisters went to a local christian book store and found these awesome planners. They where kind of like the filofax, kikki.k, etc. designs but it was a soft plastic 3-ring binder. We all got a different design and the two in school used it for school and I don’t know what my older sister did with hers. I’ve gone back to this store over the years to find another one but they only carried them the one time! I never knew the name, but I know that was the most organized year of my life!

The problem I am having is that last year I was trying to minimalize and figured why do I need this old book? It really hurt to put it in the trash because I loved that binder and I never ever thought about just printing out my own calendars to refill it 😦

The closest thing I can come to in size and feel is this Imagination Academic Year Daily Dated Planner but in my dreams I could have this size, shape, weight, spiral bound but with the layout more like Day-Timer Family plus loose-leaf planner (which for some reason I can’t find a correct link to the one I saw in Walmart last night but linked is the actual website, also pictured below). The problem with the family binder is that it’s super bulky and not portable in my opinion While the academic one mentioned about.



Also!!!!! A big grrrr is how the planner is $24.95 at my Walmart but the refill alone on the website is $28 plus shipping! that is ridiculous! The only thing I can think to do it buy the one at walmart that I like and find a cover of my prefered size. I like my planner pages to meet with the edges. No extra room for things to get into the planner.

YouTube vlogging again

Much to my surprise I uploaded a video today to my YouTube channel. It’s something I started in hopes of being an everyday girls guide to life but it was just awkward. Lol. I used to dedicate hours to filming, editing, and the dreaded million hour upload but them life got in the way so I stopped. But I want to reach out to women especially. Young women like me (but if you are older too or a male and something helps you please don’t go away! God brought you here for a reason. I just want to clarify my heart’s target audience)

Now if you read some of my posts from before today you’ll see I have some sadder note or just thoughtfullness triggered by a memory, a feeling, or reaction to something. And I would like to continue doing that in hopes that someone knows they aren’t alone. I wait, prayerfully, before I post most things. Because in my moment of pain or anxiety everything is hyper-sensitive and my emotions cloud my reasoning. It’s kind of like writing a bad review for your favorite restaurant in the moment they’ve really wronged you (it seems to you). I don’t want to throw it all away for one rash, insensitive comment.

Anyway, those don’t have videos to go with them but I do hope to have at least one post a week that has a video to go along with it.

So that is my prayerful plan and I hope I help at least one person out there in the world.

ETA: the channel is

The video: